I don't know if it's funny or pathetic. I haven't wanted something this much in a long time.

What little sleep I did get last night was plagued by nothing but dreams about..

It means more to me than just the kill, just the title. I guess in a way it's the culmination of everything I've done for the last 10 months. A chance to validate myself and how hard I've worked for everyone. Maybe part of me feels like if I do this, it'll mean that I was successful at reuniting people under the banner of cooperation and friendship, and even though my skills as a leader were called into question at the end, that this will prove they were all wrong. It'll mean that I served them well, one last time. That their trust in me was not misplaced.

That's a lot of pressure. No wonder I barely slept!